Sunday, September 22, 2013

To My Biological Mom...



A note to my bio mom, whom I've never met. I'm not sure why, but for the first time in 48 years, I felt compelled...

~I don't have a longing but I am curious. Do you feel the same?
~I've always wondered if we act alike. Do you feel the same?
~I look in the mirror and imagine seeing you. Do you feel the same?
~I relate to my heritage because it's my blood. Do you feel the same?
~I love my own daughter to my soul. Do you feel the same?
~I have a wonderful life and am truly grateful. Do you feel the same?
~I don't miss you but I think of you. Do you feel the same?

~I know in my heart if we met, we would be the same!

One final question...
Do you ever wish you knew my name?

6 comments:

Nana Mouse said...

58 years ago on October 2, it will be the day she gave birth to me and lost me. They never even saw their babies in 1955. How can I not hurt for her? ♥

Amy Wise said...

Nana Mouse,

Thank you for sharing that with me. Adoption is such a difficult yet very selfless choice. I can't imagine giving up a child yet I'm so grateful for the family I was given to and chosen by. I hope you feel the same. Thank you for stopping by and opening up your heart.
~Amy

Madgew said...

i remember last year I believe you found that the agency where you were adopted from was still in existence. Did you ever follow through? Great sentiments and I can't imagine that she hasn't thought of you.

Amy Wise said...

Madge,

I did contact them and found out it is quite the process to go through. As of now I'm not going further. Between the busyness of life and because I am so happy with my family, I don't feel the need at this time. One day. Maybe. I have always been curious about many things but I've never felt a loss. I have had such a blessed life, even through all the crazy ups and downs! I am grateful for the life she gave me by making the choice she did. I can't imagine how hard it must have been. <3

Nay K. {Miami Heat #1 fan} said...

Amy, I have not been on your site in several months, but I have missed your wonderful comments. I just read your awesome poem. I forgot that you said you were adopted. Did you ever know your biological dad? As I read your words today, they touched me in a sad way that if I had kept staring at them, I would have had tears in my eyes for you. Your mom and dad will never know what a beautiful woman you turned out to be and what a beautiful heart that only the Holy Spirit of God and Jesus Christ can give you. Perhaps your mom and dad had some odd reason for letting you go at the time. Perhaps it was for financial reasons or perhaps they became homeless or had a life style that was not good for you, but I wish that they could meet you and their granddaughter. My youngest son, Sullas married a woman and adopted her son as has taken care of them as if they were his own. Anyhoo, it that time again for Miami Heat to take it to the hoop 2014 champs.

Amy Wise said...

Nay K,

Thank you so much for your kind, kind words! I have not met my bio mom or dad. I am truly grateful that they made the decision they made. I have an amazing loving family and my parents are my parents. I love my mom and dad to my soul and don't think of them as the parents who adopted me, they are just my parents. I want my bio mom and dad to know what a wonderful life I have had and I want them to know I am happy and healthy. I hope they have had the same experience in their lives. Adoption is such a difficult decision but they made the choice they made because it was the best choice for them at the time. I know this and it's okay. <3 Truly.